\u201c\u0130yi diyelim, iyi olal\u0131m.\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn tesir etmedi\u011fi, inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 gelmedi\u011fi g\u00fcnlerin tam ortas\u0131nda, etraf\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fman taraf\u0131ndan ku\u015fat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, sindirilmi\u015f, a\u00e7 b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fcz ve bitap bir haldeyim. Yorgunum. Duygular\u0131m, otuzuncu kata \u00e7imento torbas\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan bir i\u015f\u00e7inin beli kadar b\u00fck\u00fck, aln\u0131ndan yanaklar\u0131na akan teri kadar \u00e7aresiz. Hayat\u0131n de\u011fil, insanlar\u0131n yorduklar\u0131ndan\u0131m ben. Sevmesini bilmeyenler, sevilmeyi hak etmeyenler y\u0131pratt\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck d\u00fcnyamda kocaman y\u00fcre\u011fimi. Hayk\u0131rmak istiyorum. Uyumamak i\u00e7in yast\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 dikle\u015ftirip s\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 yaslad\u0131\u011f\u0131m yata\u011f\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p pencerenin kenar\u0131na varmak, pencereyi ard\u0131na kadar a\u00e7arak beyin travmas\u0131 ge\u00e7irmek \u00fczere olan kafam\u0131 d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p \u201cYeter art\u0131k, yeter! Yeni bir hayat istiyorum!\u201d diye avaz\u0131m \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar ba\u011f\u0131rmak istiyorum. <\/p>\n
Fakat biliyorum, g\u0131rtla\u011f\u0131m\u0131 y\u0131rtarcas\u0131na yapaca\u011f\u0131m bu hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015f, yan odada uyumakta olan annemden ba\u015fka kimsenin umurunda olmaz. Aksine, gecenin bir vaktinde neden \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k att\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 merak edeceklerine, yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m vakitsiz g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcn\u00fcn a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 rahats\u0131zl\u0131ktan \u015fik\u00e2yet\u00e7i olur bu feryad\u0131m\u0131 duyanlar. Duyars\u0131zl\u0131k hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131na tutulmu\u015f bir toplumun i\u00e7inde yapaca\u011f\u0131m bu sesleni\u015f, elimden tutan biri olmazsa daha da \u00e7abuk bir girdab\u0131n i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekilmemden ba\u015fka bir i\u015fe yaramaz.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u201c\u0130yi diyelim, iyi olal\u0131m.\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn tesir etmedi\u011fi, inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 gelmedi\u011fi g\u00fcnlerin tam ortas\u0131nda, etraf\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fman taraf\u0131ndan ku\u015fat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, sindirilmi\u015f, a\u00e7 b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fcz ve bitap bir haldeyim. Yorgunum. Duygular\u0131m, otuzuncu kata \u00e7imento torbas\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan bir i\u015f\u00e7inin beli kadar b\u00fck\u00fck, aln\u0131ndan yanaklar\u0131na akan teri kadar \u00e7aresiz. Hayat\u0131n de\u011fil, insanlar\u0131n yorduklar\u0131ndan\u0131m ben. Sevmesini bilmeyenler, sevilmeyi hak etmeyenler y\u0131pratt\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck d\u00fcnyamda […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":89083,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"_acf_changed":false},"bookauthor":[],"publisher":[],"product_brand":[],"product_cat":[2885],"product_tag":[],"class_list":["post-89084","product","type-product","status-publish","has-post-thumbnail","product_cat-cat-11","first","instock","shipping-taxable","purchasable","product-type-simple"],"acf":{"isbn":"9786257884372","year":2020,"binding_type":"Ciltsiz","pages":144,"weight":200,"dimensions":"14 x 21","paper":"2. Hamur"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product\/89084","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/product"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=89084"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/89083"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=89084"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"bookauthor","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/bookauthor?post=89084"},{"taxonomy":"publisher","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/publisher?post=89084"},{"taxonomy":"product_brand","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_brand?post=89084"},{"taxonomy":"product_cat","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_cat?post=89084"},{"taxonomy":"product_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chapterworm.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_tag?post=89084"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}